Children in Time

I was on Facebook this morning, and this Filipino girl I used to talk to last year is pregnant. I was so shocked, in my head I was just like, "Where has time gone?" and "Where am I going?"

Tough questions for a single guy, but I don't think because everyone around me is having children is any reason to jump the gun. My time will come and i'd rather be prepared to handle new circumstances that arise as opposed to struggling through them. I definitely am excited though, having a child is a revelatory experience that is sure to be life changing, as I would expect it to be.

Until then I will continue to take upon things that I can handle, there is no sense in overburdening yourself.

My new modded Wii

After selling all my PS3 games and only being left with 7 out of 65, it becomes a really hard task not to try and buy all those games again lol. I decided I would forget about my PS3. However, I was browsing the internet three nights ago and I came across a hack for PS3, so I was like what the hey, might as well give it a shot. Didn't work out so well because apparently I would have to downgrade my PS3 to 3.55 from 4.11 use an E3 Flasher or some other motherboard flashing chip. I wasn't really down for all that so I switched over to my wii. Best idea I ever had. Turns out hacking on the wii fantastic and I've done it! It was a long a strenuous process deleting stub files and loading cios on the empty slots but I did it and anyone who need help just give me an email at kadeem.daley.lewis@gmail.com and I can definitely give you some tips.

Here are some pics below of the games I have on my external hdd running off my wii;

Lack of posts

Sorry for the lack of posts lately, Ive been kinda having some writers block. Tonight I will try to add some new content.

Good day to you all :)

The Burden of Meaning

So I was discussing with my friends Jesse, Matt and Andrew about meaning. Matt and Andrew kinda in their own world playing the guitar but Jesse and I were in deep conversation about what specifically I meant about knowing what our meaning is as humans. He was giving plethora of references before he came to the conclusion of saying "if you knew your purpose, what would you do with it?" "What if some higher evolved being created you for the sole purpose of being a dentist, would that satisfy the meaning of your life?"
These were pretty perplexed questions (although hypothetical situations), namely because it shows that if you discovered your purpose in life, whatever it is, what would that do for you? What if your purpose isn't something you want to do? Then what?

A very interesting take on meaning for sure and definitely one i'm going to look into a bit more to see if I actually am searching for my purpose in life as opposed to overall universal meaning and understanding.

Just something interesting I thought I'd share from today.

Poems from a couple of friends

to fall
        in
           loneliness

to fall
        into
             the eye sockets of the Moon

to fall
        deep in the dustiest depths of the rock in the darken sky


'BROKENDAWN'


the rays of the sutra sunflower
pouring it's gleeful pedals onto the bare parts of its admirers
spreading hope like the seeds of its earthly children
the lust & the love & the love
shining
shimmers of this hope
hope.


'BROKENDUSK'

this fall
           never
                   end
                        -ing
                             .


dusk2dawn

March 9 2012

I felt the cummings coming.  The Moon is present and darker than ever!

Michael Nyarkoh

Her naked soul
wide awake,
eyes/lips/conscious

Rain falls from brow to discarded support
Both racing organs present in singlehood
O the moment and sound
Higher it has reached the animals growl
Reaching points never tackled

Bare backs and spirits only peaking
the beasts are widely going going going
attacking to amuse
O the amusement

the naked soul
Filled from inner to out and below


theANIMALS

Michael Nyarkoh


The destruction of ego
The defense mechanism of ones alter being
It is detracting with all beings
Indulging in the components of the blue print
Which created by sweaty slaves
Who are working to create our cravings
The material mechanism that we must endure

Consuming in consumers
Nothing more then earning
Similar to yearning
I who is yearning for my craft
However, earning for man
Nothing more then a pond with the
mindset of a chess player
Evolving with evaluation
And becoming the player
Playing
Playing
Playing

This mortal game of chess

Keon Cameron


I am sitting in a cave filled with feces and unknown species
That are flashing and making noises
They are burning my eyes and making me think of how this world is
More like how this girl is
She is the one
the one
the one
the one
Who broke the organ sitting inside of my chest
STOP MAKING NOISES
They don’t and continue to flash
But it is not her and I know it for sure
However, at spontaneous times it is her
But not really
This may sound silly
But I get excited
But, it is her purse and or pocket and I am reminded
POCKET DIALIANG(echoing voice)
But I am still in this cave
Influenced by substances that shall remain nameless
But I need it to tame this
Feeling and the matter helps with the healing
And I feel better a lot more better
I must express it some how
I feel
But is the time now?
I am not ready to heal

So I will sit in this cave filled with bodily waste and an obscure race

By. The One Who Shall Remain Nameless

Keon Cameron


It was a bald eagle
The one who ate my passion up like a worm
It was her
Bald but beautiful
and very deceitful
It was a bald eagle
Who took my insides and ate them with a kindred spirit
They kept it a secret
But little did they know I was aware of it
It was a bald eagle
Who told me that I was falling like the twin towers
And that she did not want to crush my ego
It was a bald eagle
That reminded me of the essence
I fell weak to her presence
It was a bald eagle
That left me hanging and dangling
Like a black slave with nothing remaining
But  my heart dangling
It was a bald eagle
The one who ate the remains of my heart
 and gave it to her new born
It was a fucking bald eagle

Keon Cameron

Far right: Michael

Far left: Keon

Final Fantasy XIII taking a classical twist

I was kinda just browsing the web today and I came across an amazing violinist. He has a few videos playing along side Final Fantasy XIII and XIII-2 scores, giving them an elegant sound, reminiscent of classical music.

I Personally loved Final Fantasy XIII, So dearly. I bought it in the summer of 2010 and I feel in love with the music, I have all the songs on my iphone 4 :p

Here's another rendition of a Final Fantasy XIII-2 score

Some of the artwork I've done lately

Hey everyone, sorry I didn't post yesterday, I was actually hanging out with a few canadians actors last night lol. Munro Chambers and Demetrius Joyette and a few of my buddies.

Enough about that, here's the art :) ;

To be a hermit

I've been thinking about making this arbitrary transition in my life so I can finally achieve true contentment. But it seems this is too heavy a decision to make given my circumstances in life, but isn't that the point of becoming a hermit? To show that you do not need to be governed by society, you can create your own path and live peacefully among nature.

I'd like you all to read this passage I came across today;

For the spiritual hermit, or ascetic, he or she lives a total life of seclusion. Preferably, they live in a cave or forest, far from any civilization. This allows the hermit to live in silence, and to focus on the natural flow of creation. This in turn gives him or her an understanding of the purpose and true blessings of life. These hermits live beyond the ego in a state that brings total contentment.&<------ THIS IS WHAT I WANT!

Refer to this link for more info---> http://www.wisegeek.com/what-is-a-hermit.htm

A walk to school

.....I walk to school and I feel my imagination hard at work, creating an alternate reality for myself. In this alternate reality I see myself on a beautiful beach somewhere far away, with the sun setting, leaving everything in its range lit in a brilliant red-orange glow. On this beach no one else exists except me and my woman. We lay in the sand, enjoying each other’s presence, while the ocean sounds soothe us to a state of ultimate relaxation. In this alternate reality I sometimes see myself walking through a field of flowers in middle of the night, with the moon shining its sliver glare over everything. I continue to walk through this field of flowers and think of a peaceful world and wish that one day it might become a reality, but then I look to my side and see my beautiful woman smile at me and with the shine of the moon, it appears as though I am walking next to an angel. I look down and think; why wish for anything when God has already granted the greatest wish? In this alternate reality, I see myself venturing through the amazon to explore the unexplored. A monkey jumps down from the trees and pulls on me, I glance at it and smile, admiring the beauty of creation, and I began to play with it. In this alternate reality, I have three beautiful children, with my lovely wife. I give these children everything a father can; love, affection, gifts, and knowledge. After a long day at work, I come home and I kiss my children goodnight. I slip into bed with my wife and cuddle with her. I look into her eyes and tell her I love her and kiss her goodnight. In this alternate reality in which my imagination has created, everything seems so perfect, but then I open the doors to my school and my imagination ceases to create these imaginative thoughts. It is as though a mental block has been placed on my mind. I anticipate the end of school. I leave the building and return to my imaginary paradise.

The Psyche

I think I may have a psychological problem. I can never seem to keep myself happy. There are people around me that are going through similar things, so I know they can probably relate.

I just have a really hard time discerning what meaning is and how I can utilize it. I try to keep myself occupied with the things that make me happy. Although this happiness is welcomed, I also feel a deep emptiness all the while.......even through the happiness.

It's like a grimacing choke hold, a choke hold on my mental capacity. It is being blocked by my failures and disappointments... and the heart breaks. I've tried closure from all the events of my past, but they continue to haunt me, like a demon commissioned to follow me all the days of my life.

How can I break free? As I acquire knowledge I just find myself seeming even more helpless when I'm forced to evaluate all that I've done to change the world. It is minuscule in comparison to what I could of done. I am an atheist. So there is no one to console me in times of deep thought.

Deep thought which brings me meaningless objectivity, meaningless because we as humans live to serve are genes purpose, we procreate so they can survive. So what more meaning can that leave for me; the human vessel? Am I just a mechanical pawn carrying out evolution? And if so, what intelligent purpose is behind evolution being able to prevail, in spite of its improbability as a random phenomena?

So many questions, so few answers. I will now continue my journey toward euphoria.

Also check out "The Selfish Gene" By Richard Dawkins, amazing book and interesting take on the purpose of genes and organisms as vessels.

Realization

Realization prose

As I stand in this sweet surrender. I bask at the glory that is the manifestation of life. Living with so many complications, we forget to sit down enjoy the beauty of it all. Temptations and lust overtake us and we never get a chance to really live that utopian lifestyle of utter relaxation. Take a moment and gaze at the sky, you'll see that our influences aren't bound to this planet alone, our influence can span the universe. We are free... Truly free because we have the power of thought. We can imagine and create through constructive thinking. I will not sit down here for another moment and be burdened by my past, that will only be a hinderance to my future. I am no longer scared, I know who I am, I do not discriminate against anyone. No one is perfect but I know one day I will grow to love everyone as it is essential to helping us grow as a positive collective group.


Kadeem JL. Daley-Lewis

What is Love?

What is love?

I can’t seem to understand this imaginary feeling, its essence is intangible.

What makes it real?

When you find your counterpoint in another person?

What is love?

To ask this question entails that I have never been in love

Is this true?

Maybe

Or maybe I was trapped in my own deluded thought of what love is

So again I ask what is love?

Or have I already answered this?
Is it what you make it?              

Sketch Book Pro for iPhone Sample

Here is a water color painting I did using the sketchbook book app. Not the greatest but it was only intended to be a sample as the title states lol

Sooner or later I'll be able to translate my actual sketching ability to this app and produce some masterpieces :)

My Favourite Blogs from around the web

Everyone has their favourites but I thought I'd detail mine here because they actually do enlighten me on the happenings of the world everyday :)

So here they are;

http://scribol.com/stories/science/recent

http://www.environmentalgraffiti.com/

http://www.iheartchaos.com/

I can wholeheartedly say that these blogs have helped me take my own blogging more seriously and instilled the essence of maintaining creativity on a consistent basis.

Designing a better human

This was an absolutely amazing read for me, all the credit goes to my friend Andrew Loughlin. He was one of my friends that I met when I was living on University residence, those were some truly memorable times and I've become a more well rounded and intelligent person because of it. I would never trade that experience for anything else in the world because wisdom cannot be bought, only obtained through experience. This a pretty heavy read, but it's more than worth it. Soooo enough with the jibber jabber lol lets get to it;


DESIGNING A BETTER HUMAN!



A while ago on Reddit, there was a thread that asked, "if you were responsible for redesigning the human body within the constraints of biology, what would you change?".
I found the question awesome, and laboured on a response I found satisfactory. Of course, I posted in the thread rather late, and this didn't get nearly as many upvotes as it deserved, so I'm posting an amended version on facebook to get my kicks and validation.


Sensory Systems:
The human eye is vastly underdeveloped. Mantis shrimp, for instance, have eyes that put ours to shame. A significantly improved eye would allow perception of polarized light, a larger area of the electromagnetic spectrum (infrared and ultraviolet!), and depth perception with a single eye. The ease of gently fucking our visual system with striped bars in funny patterns is a testament to some basic failures of perception in deeper brain areas, and it isn't difficult to imagine some sort of additional, corrective processing that could go on in the visual cortex to help compensate for this, as well. When I think about it, it would actually be really cool to have two eyes in the back of your head. How would your perception of the world be different if you had a 360 degree (as opposed to a paltry 180 degree) range of vision? If you take into account the monocular depth perception I talked about above, you could have 4 foveae darting around, drinking the world in. The human ear would do well to be capable of both a wider range of pitch discrimination, and more accurate pitch discrimination. I'd hope that in our theoretical Homo superior, perfect pitch comes standard. Also, echolocation would be friggen’ sweet. I’ve heard a good sense of smell, like that of a dog, is perceptually interesting. When a dog walks into a room, it not only knows what is in the room, but through smell, what has happened in the room for a short time in the past. Imagine being able to walk into a room and perceive what just transpired in it, based on smell alone! Increasing the concentration and variety of chemoreceptors in the nose would potentially allow for this ability, but you'd need some extra brain space for processing. Taste is pretty cool, as you can get pretty precise information from your taste receptors alone (the handedness of glucose, for instance: normally sweet, its optical isomer is sour). Being able to detect some obvious chemicals might be a cool addition. More senses! Pidgeons have the power of magnetoception, the ability to sense magnetic fields. This would definitely be a cool addition, and give us h4x senses of direction. Also, a built in barometer might be a nifty thing to have as well! Sidenote: What I find coolest about thinking about new senses is imagining the art that could be done with them! What would a museum be like if it had exhibits to cater to our senses of magnetism and pressure, as well as vision and hearing? 


The Body:
More fingers! A second thumb on the other side of our hands would allow for a much, much cooler range of hand movements. It would also give us a good excuse to start using base 12, which is way cooler than base 10. Body hair is gross. Beards may stay. This lung thing we have going on is dumb. Birds have 4 chambered lungs for efficient air exchange. Both inhaling and exhaling passes air through the lungs, and a series of valves keeps the oxygenated and deoxygenated air from mixing. Smart. We have two eyes, two lungs, two kidneys! I say it's about damn time we have two hearts. A perfectly symmetrical circulatory system could reduce the strain on both hearts, lower average blood pressure, and give us a second chance in case of heart attack or drive by. Increasing the concentration of hemoglobin in our blood would do a whole bunch of cool things, like keep us from dying at high altitudes, let us run longer, get tired slower, and hold our breath longer! The need for sleep is lame! Keeping that shit down to a minimum gives more time for six fingered wanking. What's the deal with acne bacteria? The immune system of Homo superior should be able to kick the crap out of it. Speaking of which, why does our immune system suck so much? We shouldn't be frightened of diseases. Diseases should be frightened of us. Allergies are some of the most useless things I can think of. Toss 'em. While we're tossing useless things, we might as well get rid of nearsightedness, farsightedness, astigmatism, and other silly eye problems evolution should've taken care of. Speaking of silly eye things, let's get some more eye colors (patterns, textures?!) just for the hell of it. Bioluminescent eyes I'm sure would be impractical, but hot damn they would look cool. Digestion is pretty key! We've co-evolved with a bunch of bacteria to help us digest things well. I'm sure that if some intelligent design went in to the capabilities of those bacteria, we could have iron stomachs and butterfly poops, as well as the ability to digest cellulose and imperviousness to things like lactose intolerance. Photosynthetic capability! This one is pushing it, and might make us a bit green. But imagine how good it would feel to stand outside in the sunlight, and feel your body taking energy directly from the sun. Vestigial organs are for losers. Separate tubes for eating and breathing, goddamn! Natural selection dropped the ball on that one. More conscious control over metabolism. The ability to alter things such as heart rate, fat storage, and thermoregulation in the same sort of manner you normally control breathing. We would do well to dump some skill points in the liver. A greater range of enzymes could increase the number of substances our liver can detox us of, as well as up the efficiency (no hangovers!). Some desert animals have beefy kidneys, which drastically reduce their need to consume water and lose it due to waste. A tune up here could give us a little bit extra homeostatic leeway. Telomerase up in this bitch! While living forever might be a bit far fetched, a few hundred years would be pretty nice. Regeneration of limbs! Certain animals called Axolotls (who look like Mudkips) can regenerate entire, fully functioning limbs and body parts. Anything they can do, we should be able to do better. 


Reproductive system: Alright, this is a big one. Admittedly, testicles are kind of dumb. Nature is a dick, and left one of our most important body parts hanging. Keep them inside the body. Refashion the sperm out of enzymes that don't fall apart like little bitches under a little heat. Nextly, women are champions for putting up with the bullshit that is the menstrual cycle. Ideally, humans should have complete conscious control over reproduction. Women could ovulate when they want to get preggers, and men should be able to shoot blanks as often as they please. 


Nervous System:
Nerf the limbic system and hand that shit over to the prefrontal cortex. Our emotions are adapted for a lifestyle 10,000 years out of date, and our brain could use some catching up. Hardcore overclocking of executive processing, including delay of gratification, spatial awareness, working memory, emotional control, and sheer processing power would make life a whole lot more interesting. Add some synesthesia! Certain savants, like Daniel Tammet, have ridiculous mathematical ability due to it. If it could be usefully present in all humans, it would make us way more awesome as a species. Control over the pain response. While at times useful, conscious suppression of it in times of need would be very welcome. Eidetic memory. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eidetic_memory) Perpetual lucid dreaming. As far as I know, there aren't any detrimental differences between lucid dreaming REM and regular, unlucid REM, so why this option isn't set on "default" I don't know. Emotional state overhaul! I've heard it said that life is suffering; that conscious animals are always in some state of need or want, and life is just keeping pain at bay. However, as any recreational drug user will tell you, reality is arbitrary! Evolution demands brains that only pay attention to stimuli relevant for survival and replication. However, our theoretical man did not evolve. Certain recreational drugs produce a very profound appreciation for existence that cannot be found sober; under the influence, you can find untold beauty in other people, the world we live in, the fact that we are alive, and even in a detached mindfulness of our own suffering. If you could capture this perspective while maintaining a clear and lucid intellect, why not? Why should Homo superior be caught in the same emotional, existential turmoil that Homo sapiens has always struggled with? You may imagine a race of humans, who, in perpetual bliss, naturally embody what we consider the virtues of empathy and mindfulness. This attitude of the species, when taken together with the physical and intellectual powers described above, is suggestive of a race closer to angels than to men.

Coming along well

I'm happy about yesterday, I was able to generate a lot of traffic for one night and really get my ideas out. This is now a daily thing :)

Oh yeah, I was feature on some news gathering website too, under the education section, check it out below:

http://paper.li/MyLifeOnWeb1/1324904746 

The article featured was the active side of infinity

The Active Side of Infinity

I actually began reading this book in early 2010. This was a period when I was enveloped in the whole lore of Star Wars and the whole thought process behind George Lucas' masterpiece (the first three atleast :P). You can refer to this previous post---> http://kadeemdl.blogspot.ca/2010/02/star-wars-is-more-profound-than-people.html

But yeah after learning about luminosity (refer to previous post link) I began to move outward, learning more about the people who embraced this type of knowledge. And to my surprise it turned out to be the Native Indians, more specifically the Mexican shamans. I won't go into too much detail but "The Active Side of Infinity" is a very riveting book that details a man named Carlos Castaneda's journey of learning some of the secrets from the shaman Don Juan. 

Here is the book;

http://www.prismagems.com/castaneda/donjuan12.html

And here is a short audio reading of some of the opening sections detailing the how stories are used to identify ones self:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WoU3Xq-2USU&feature=relmfu 

I think that the lack of views represents it's rarity in the minds of the world. Not much people know of this knowledge so share it and make use of it somehow.

Cheers

Backing down from Pro Gaming

Well it seems the dream has died lol.
Life kept presenting me with new ideas and things that were just more stimulating then screaming at the top of my lungs at some campers in MW3. To be honest being a pro gamer takes more work than actually becoming something practical when you really look at it. For example, guys like Tom Taylor or "T-Squared" and his team Str8 Rippin are a pro Halo 3 (reach & ODST) team and their training regiment is insane. They can't do anything but game and when they're not gaming, they're travelling somewhere else to game lol. It probably is a fun path but it just isn't for me, I'd rather keep gaming as a competitive past time. So yeah I quit trying to make it to MLG status lool.

Back up and running

Hello to all my readers, I am finally completely dedicated to this blog as funny as that sounds (because i've said that several times before lulz :P). I recently regained my love for sketching and creative writing so this is going to be my new kiosk for displaying all that I want to share. Before this blog used to  be solely dedicated to gaming but I've made a few changes to the design and removed a few things I felt were no longer needed for the direction I am heading in. This blog is now more oriented towards intellectual stimulation and the harvesting of new useful ideas that will promote internal growth and assist with any self cultivation you may be seeking for yourself.

I will post my own work as well things of intrigue that I could potentially spark meaningful discussions and maybe birth new ideas (this is mainly in regards to conspiracies and alternative spirtuality)

So welcome everyone, and I hope you all can take at least a titbit of information from here and spread it to the rest of the world.

FEEL FREE TO COMMENT AND FOLLOW, I will do the same to support your efforts as well.

Cheers

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Trust and susceptibility

I've given trust away so many times for it to be thrown around like a frisbee. Susceptibility, it's our nature. What our subconscious believes as truth isn't always the case. We have levels. These different levels bring forth perception. No individual lives the same. We all create our environments through these levels. Hence our own reality. Why would evolution allow such a heinous thing? To think and be free. Similar to being aggressive and hurting. All manifested from thought. Does being mechanical suit us better? Would life flow more easily if we didn't have the capacity to think ? We wouldn't have the tremendous strain of conscious awareness. Objectively, to be aware means you can identify folly. To not correct such deviations when you have the ability to is not the natural flow of things. To be a star and not emit heat is not natural. So to think and not constructively use it would not be natural, although our thoughts will trick us into thinking otherwise. Trust and susceptibility, very intrinsic ideals indeed.